Look to the Lord

I'm really tired. My body wants to lay around for a day, or two. Swimming lessons started last week and they are great. We stay for the family swim afterwards which means I swim because Olivia is too young to be in the pool without an adult. I want to be in there with her; she is doing so well and having a great time. But, it is exhauting being in the pool for almost an hour. It is almost a mile from our home and we walk. It would be fine, even added to all the other lessons and biking, but this weekend was more busy than the week. I think I will include all the busyness on the Our Trail blog in a day or two so I'm not going to give you details. I just want to ramble about being so tired. We went to bed at a decent time last night so I got up this morning at my usual 4:30 and had my tea, read Psalm 105 and wrote in my journal. This is my preferred routine and I enjoy the quiet time to sit and pray and think (my favorite activity). Psalm 105 was a great place to read this morning in my weakened state. My verse today was 'Look to the Lord and his stregnth; seek his face always.' That will be the theme of my week.

I needed to wake the children at 6:00, but when I went in and turned on the closet light, none of them noticed and they went on sleeping. I didn't have the heart to wake them and Greg doesn't leave until after 8:00 today. So here I am rambling in a quiet home when I should be correcting math papers with the boys. It is a great advantage to homeschooling to be able to change our schedule at will. We have lightened our schedules for these four weeks of swimming lessons and a little extra sleep will help them fight off the colds coming into season.

I decided last week that I wanted to begin fasting again. I went through a time when I was fasting one day a week, but it was before Olivia and I felt I couldn't fast while preganant or nursing and then I've just never gotten back to it. This week I will, today. It will only be an approximate 24 hour fast, from dinner to dinner. It gives me ample time to suffer and pray and keeps the fasting more private. I don't need to talk about it with Greg or anyone; the children may notice, but it is a good example for them. It is a challenge to not say anything and keep it between me and God. Of course, I'm telling anyone reading this, but I'm sure there are not that many of you and I will consider it an example to you, as well. You will not have to see me irritable and complaining which avoiding those things is always the greatest challenge for me at any time, more so when I'm uncomfortable. I have many things to pray for and I desire that fasting will increase my focus on the One to whom I must look to for my strength and my needs and my wants.

I'm getting sleepy so it is time to get up and start working.