It has been a long time since I have been able to write on this blog. Finding internet access has not been as difficult as finding the time to sit and use the access while the battery recharges. We have rarely been camping with electricity and that has been the biggest challenge by far for computer updating. My phases continue of having a great time to being depressed and unfortunately the fluctuations are rapid and never far from each other. I am glad for this time, but we will all be glad to settle down again. I am so thankful for the sites we are seeing and the time we are spending together, but it is full of the unexpected and we can't seem to experience that without stress to go with it. How wonderful it would be if we could just always remember that things will work out and we can be happy the whole time, rather than feeling the pressure of making things work out. I feel like I'm doing a terrible job. The kids are hardly ever doing any school and what I wrote before about asking them to do their work and them doing it is not longer holding true. It seems like things are always a mess because we just have too much stuff and there is always way more for me to do than I can ever accomplish. I am working harder than I ever have in my life all the time and always exhausted. But, Greg told me last night that this trip is not about getting everything done, but spending time together as a family. I will try to remember that.